At the Bristol Alexander School, we third years need to produce and submit an Alexander Technique related project between 6000 and 9000 words, I’m half way there and only a few weeks to complete. Procrastination in the word of the day, well it is Valentine’s Day so we going for lunch, I do have time before lunch – this time now, but I’m doing a procrastination blog about procrastination about not doing my project. This is a common issue with me, all keen at the beginning but getting to the end of things my interest wains and thoughts of ‘that I’m not good enough’; ‘my work is rubbish’; etc manifests itself.
I’m now stuck in a rut, a vicious circle, this feeling appears all too often, a pulling down, strangling with a pulling up of my shoulders. My breathing changes, it shortens and is tighter.
But what to do?
I know what to do to get out of this rut, but it feels so familiar and comfortable in a strange uncomfortable way.
I want to stay here in my procrastination but I don’t at the same time, I want to be free to get on with my project, the rest of my life including a joyous Valentine’s Day lunch with my lovely wife.
I know what to do and that is do nothing. A strange statement if you are not aware of Alexander’s discovery.
Alexander’s inhibition (not Freud’s inhibition) but it is the first step.
Thats better, time for a lovely lunch.
I may explain my version of Alexander’s inhibition later or not.