Thank you for contacting me today, firstly for reading my blog and also telling me that I have some typos.
I’m really pleased that people take time to read and I’m especially pleased that I’m told that I’ve got a few typos.
I’m genuinely really pleased to be told I’ve got typos but deep in my gut I get the bad old feeling that I’ve got it wrong again! I’m not good enough, I’m a failure, you probably sometimes have these feelings yourself.
I know and trust the person who contacted, their intent wasn’t to criticise.
The criticism is ALL mine.
Sometime in my childhood someone criticised me about something I did, the feeling of hopelessness and failure with my tightened gut developed from then and is still here today. One of my habits is to get on with a task and then fire and forget, hoping that is is good enough.
Today I got told I have typos! My self-criticism rose, the difference now is that I will engage and resolve the problem, in the past I’d spend time rationalising the problem, a good dose of procrastination and work out why it wasn’t my fault: lack of education, never good at grammar, etc.
Blaming others for my mistake.
I’ve stopped blaming, this change came about through my Alexander Technique training; a mix of self-acceptance, self-awareness, learning to be present and throughly enjoying the here and now; you should try it sometime as it will change your life for the good. With these skills life becomes easier and FANTASTIC, however not every day is fantastic, there are bad days and good days, and there are days I drift into old habits and fire and forget when I’ve written a blog. Today was a good reminder old habits linger, waiting to pounce when an eye is taken off the ball.
By the way this is my 201st blog about the Alexander Technique, there must be something in it for me for me to keep on writing.
Why not find a teacher or even me and discover why I keep writing about the Alexander Technique.