I’ve have a couple of aborted blogs written but not published over this Christmas, I have difficulty with Christmas, bad thoughts and missing people that were close to me. I don’t want to write about that, A very dear friend of mine suggested I write about something else. Something that not everyone knows.
If your a regular reader you already know what this is about, if you don’t, you may wonder what all the coming out is about!
About fifteen years ago a woman put her right hand on my left shoulder, there was a shudder down my body and was left tingling, you may read this was a bad experience, it was anything but, I wanted more.
I wanted more
Little did I know where her touch would lead, I was intrigued by the
- offer of freedom,
- a moment of being pain free,
that a single touch could bring in just a moment. She touched me through my shirt and jacket in a public place for maybe a couple of seconds at most.
I wanted to explore more, I did, We met most Friday afternoons for about an hour. I can’t remember in detail what we did, nor did I understand why she did it to me, I do remember the outcome though, I was happier, freer, more alive and I wanted more of the same. So when she said; “same time next week”; the answer was ‘YES’.
When you come and see me, you may well be confused in what I do but feel great afterwards.
I had no expectations on any changes that were taking place physically or mentally, I just enjoyed the experience, I enjoyed the therapy, I didn’t understand that I was to learn something. I was learning, not in a conventional way. I was changing, my reliance on asthma inhalers was changing, there were times I completely forgot about them, then I remembered and got into a panic. I was getting taller, I was losing my slump, I was less of a rabbit in headlights. In fact I was changing for the better in many aspects of the way I lived.
Even after several months I still didn’t understand what she did, I tried to understand and rationalise it all but it didn’t make sense.
I still wanted more!
She was teaching me to think in a completely opposite way to the way I normally think without being too obvious. This all came to an end when I changed jobs. I thought that was it, but after a year without her touch I needed it more and more, I found someone else with a similar touch nearer to home, my learning continued. Later I started my training to teach what I’ve been learning.
I’ve studied for five years at different training school to discover her touch, only to discover her touch is a small but very important aspect of the training. All the while I’ve kept all what I’ve written above secret from my siblings and father, this has been deliberate to avoid there criticism; their underhand remarks, this secrecy was to protect me but now it is holding me back, so here I am,
I am an Alexander Technique Teacher.
This may seem very strange but I choose not to tell them to avoid ridicule, ‘what’s all this quackery’ etcetera. I just didn’t want the grief! I wanted to protect myself until I’m ready.
I’m ready now!
Learning to be an Alexander Technique Teacher, the first part of the training is to learn about yourself, noticing habits that I didn’t even know I had, simple things like waving my hands when talking, mumbling when reading aloud, worrying what other are thinking, astmhatic breathing. I decided I couldn’t manage to learn about myself with the additional load of family comments and criticism, I kept it from them. Most of our learnt behaviours evolve from within our families, they are so engrained that I and you won’t notice the behaviours happen or we may cringe after the fact.
My coming out is to declare that I’m an Alexander Technique Teacher, it is a wonderful career, even if it is little known. I offer you the opportunity to rediscover your lost freedom and aliveness that you were born with, that your learnt behaviours have taken away from you. These learnt behaviours keep you from fulfilling your dreams, keeping you in your box with pain, anxiety, stress, doubt. You can unlearn these behaviours like I have done and are still doing so. Wouldn’t you like your freedom back, if so, please contact me and we can start on your journey together.
Have a joyous 2019, I know I will!